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2006-11-19T00:31:00.001+08:00

Nothing much happen this week still the same apart form normal work life i still visit my grandpa almost everyday. See him shaking in fear hurt me. He use to be a strong man now laying on the bed wanting to come down and walk but the doctor wun let. I know i have to go thru this but am trying very hard as he not is not a normal person in my heart, he raise me since the day i was born staying with him for about 12 yrs plus. I can't believe tat am crying while i typing this haha. Anyway i dun know wat to write about trying hard to make myself strong and dun think about it.. Anyway if u feel tat i typing bull shit or wat just dun borther to read this post thx.

Fighting to be happy again.......

haiz

2006-11-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

Quite long nv update liao bec this few days i keep going to hospital and working. Today is the day tat sadness really hit me bec of somethings tat the doctor told me and my dad. This is the 1st time tat life and death situation hit me, i was hopeless by that time. The doc told us tat my grandpa only can live for a limited time. This is also my 1st time i see my dad crying, i dun know wat to do i just gently pad his sholder and after i decided to walk away and let him cool down. After tat i went to walk around at the hospital so i called 1 of my buddy.... but he nv ans so i call another 1 he talk to me i feel better after talking to him. But later later on the buddy who didn't answer my call sms me ask me find him for wat i told him my problems.... He send me back fucking words tmd , even compare with his own problem and say tat he is more worst then me. At tat time i really feel like give him a punch in his face. How can u compare life like tat? So i send him back a sms if u are not here to comfort me pls dun say this hurting words to me right now but he reply me saying is u lor wtf haiz.... not to spoil the friendship with him i choose to stop this by saying am sorry to distrub u take it as i nv say before then he reply me up to u lor. WTF man wat kind of buddy is this haiz... i told myself forget it treat as i didn't told him anything. Am really very upset with the words tat he send me...

May God bless my grandpa hope he will recover.........

fuck up

2006-11-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

This weeks were fuk up week suay until dun know wat to say now my job so damn stressful everyday i must endure it for 12h.... i dun know how long can i last and this stupid job is making me sick but no chioce have to endure all these for yrs....
Am damn tired now but i feel like going out a chill with friends =D but the fuking problem is i got no friends to chill out together... kana put plane by the usual friend again.... nvm when time comes i have no time more to meet up with friends anymore.... Life been low tide for me for the my journey till now how long more must endure for things to turn around. Friends keep encourage me to think for more postive way but in fact the real fact is my life damn sux lor haiz.... then they will start to compare my case with those other ppl tat is more sad then me haiz... i know they want me to feel better but it make me feel more depress. Anyway i gone thru alot shit this week uptill now the shit not over yet haiz....... dun want to write anymore.............

Depressed...............

zzz

2006-10-29T23:15:00.000+08:00

This weekend i went to alot of places. Friday night teach my uncle how to drive his new fit so nv go out with my squad brothers so sorry..... Saturday sebest ,banana and 1 more friend bday cel i dun know his friend need so sorry forgive me haha. Was quite bored bec i can't drink they went to pub am driving. Went there see sheena laying on the table liao she sick after a while sebest send her back i came along with them. After tat we went back to the pub pick the guys up and went to marnia south play bowling after playing bowling went to yishun there eat after tat went back home liao damn tired lolx. Today morning kana scolding form father haha nvm use to it anyway after i do shift work liao i dun think i have time to go out and chill with friends liao.k tats all cya all~ Am depress now......

tired

2006-10-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

Friday night went to zouk with my squad mate reach there saw my sec sch friend reagan haha he having bday cel there haha so drop by and say happy bday to him. Anyway clubing is not my cup of tea. Those who want to know y can ask me personally i doubt no 1 cares anyway haha. After tat i drive back home alone at around 3+ reach home dead tired haha slp whole day in sat haha

This monday got a taste of real police life. Only one work to say it rocks haha but is really facing the real danger all that. Is kind of fun doing ambush anyway haha. Life been boring since dun know when haha now is fun again but very tireing haha.
Tomorrow need to go back hta on course haha but nvm go their no need to respect anyone tats good and cool too haha.

2006-10-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

Today was the last day i slp in my bunk now am at home kinda miss the bunk mates we use to chit chat till late night and the fear of being caught by FI haha its quite fun now think back. Last time always thinking when will i get out of there now is like missing the place haha. Anyway friends always be friends haha.
Today went back to HTA was kinda of stupid lor go in pack things clean up then go home liao make us so early wake up go there do this.... yesterday can do 1 wat kns la dun know how they plan things 1. Later i will be going to my new working place liao J divison haha hope can see some familar faces there haha looking forward.
Got to slp liao tomorrow still need to report back HTA sian haha NIte everyone!

zzzz

2006-10-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today is my POP day lo hahaha finally came but sad part is i cannot get to see my squad often liao anyway still can go out together with them unless they dun wish to call me out then i bo bian lor LL haha.. Have my pop dinner just now was quite touching when they put our pic on the projecter screen and with our squad t-shirt logo anyway our squad t-shirt logo rocks man too bad didn't buy extra 1 more haha if not can keep. Got my posting too dun know can say in here anot lol later kana OSA i scare lol.
Anyway got to slp 1st later marching later no str haha will update blog later maybe with pics... NITe !~

busy

2006-10-15T03:36:00.000+08:00

Been busy and tired this few weeks..... so didn't upadte blog. Time flys few mth ago i just enlist to ns now i going to pop liao will miss my brothers in there but still can come out when we off haha. On friday, i went out with my ns brothers to lau pa sa to eat and after tat went to catch a movie although the movie quite lame la but still i enjoy the time spent together with them. On saturday, i went out with seb, his sister and jb. Meet up and we went to watch movie "silk" the movie abit sian but it is quite touching. Anyway my pop is on wednesday, everyday pratice drill till evening damn tired hope tat day wun rain if not all our effort wasted.

Thx all my friends for my life wonderful and not bored every weekend =D

2006-10-01T03:46:00.000+08:00

hehe back to blog time. Friday, book out day haha at night go out with my brothers of spf haha have lots of fun went to alot places.... went back home at 4.30am lolx drive until i want to slp haha anyway no complains i enjoy myself alot haha.
Sat,morning went to eat prata with yl tcss session also haha always glad to chat with him ^^ anyway hope he can adapt to the new camp he is in now. Night went to chinatown with parents see the deco all tat and eat there too the food was good =) after tat went back home then around 10+pm sebest come fetch me go out as my dad's car run out of petrol haha... went to tamp at 1st want buy something de go there close liao tulan sia from woodlands go until tamp -.-x then went to buy drinks at coffee bean then left the place and go back to cwp meet ss den watch movie. The jacky chen new movie, very nice got happy and sad part. The baby damn cute haha if only i have one. After tat sebest send us home then now am here to blog =D

Anyway i will like to thx all my wonderful friends for making me a happy person although i dun have a gf( although i would like to have one =D ) i dun feel lonely bec i have all these brothers around accompany me. k abit mussy(dun spell rite anot wahaha XD ) liao good nite all brothers!!!~ SQUAD 35 CHIWAWA POWER TO THE CORE!!!!!!!

Night out =)

2006-09-24T04:48:00.000+08:00

Just came back form night outing with 2 of my ns bros. Went to play pool at 1st, i was late haha at home watch anime until forget time. So reach the place at around 7pm, after tat went to ps to buy tickets and watch the haunted apartment a funny horror movie haha... After the movie we went to walk around @ clarke key ( dun know how to spell haha) then walk half way saw ppl fighting. At 1st was hear ppl breaking bottle inside the pub then mins later more and more ppl rush in then after tat they rush out again throw chair and bottles here and there we quickly siam to the another side of the road... After seeing the fight we walk to a mac near mos and chit chat. Around 3+am we walk back to bus stop to take nr back.

Today was a fun day i will always remb.. And am glad to have this 2 bros =) Bed time cya!~

Life in attachment for imf

2006-09-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

Long time nv update haha now got time while waiting to go work night shift so i can update. Life in ns sux anyway.... Seen alot of things now wats true life, been thinking alot this few weeks damn stress and tired of this shit life hope pop liao can get better treatment. Anyway i seen the dark side of the proud force of singapore and i only have 1 word to say is "sad". Can't say much too bec u nv know who will be reading this anyway. To all the brothers and sisters out there who came and read my blog think twice or more before signing on with ur dipolma or higher nitec cert.... its not as easy life as u think it should be inside .

Finally my attachment going to end, now mix feelings kind of sad and happy too. Sad is bec i got to leave my teammates and teamleader liao, here i want to thx them for taking care of me for this past few weeks,my teammates are dani and yj, teamleader is kelvin. I will remb u guys anyway haha. Happy thing is tat i got to go back to HTA to see my squadmates again.

Anyway is time for me to go and get ready for my work now.... Will update when i have time... Cya~

1 sad week

2006-08-27T00:01:00.000+08:00

Ok since i have no time to post everyday must as well do this once a week. ok lets start form monday, hmm monday nothing happen same shit in hta swimming sux did alot jumping jacks and pumping until now my leg still pain shit the fi. Tuesday night is the sad night, my sis call me at ard 11.30pm i was slping already she told me my uncle was in the hospital bec of heart attack and he was in the A&E ward ...... i was so worry tat i feel like rushing out of camp to see him. After tat i can't slp until 1am i was very tired and i dose off. Wednesday i sms my mum why she nv tell me abt all this and i told her i wanted to see him and ask my mum to call th DO to give me a gate pass she say she tomorrow thursday will call .... Then on thursday she still nv call and at night my dad call me and told me not to worry wait until friday then go down to sgh and see him. So friday night after i book out i go sgh and see him seeing so weak lay on the bed my heart ach i dun know wat to say to him and just stand there..... before i left i help to arrange his bed cover him with blanket then i left. After tat i went to meet up with my spf friends they went to sing k all tat then i leave 1st bec quite no mood tat day reach home abt 3+am. Today went to see him too he look better now can stand up and walk but he say his legs very weak and he slim down alot liao see liao very sad......

Hope he will get well soon, he was like my 2nd father to me dotes me alot.His health report will be out by monday hope can get to hear good news tat he is alright.

HTA.........

2006-08-05T16:19:00.000+08:00

Been lazy to update my blog haha now got time to write then i write.... I want to thank god tat i have a good bunk mate they are friendly and helpful not like somes form other bunk. Life in HTA was like shit morning have pt until dead tired then afternoon u got to attend lesson till night and u cannot slp not even close ur eyes.... they think tat we are robots use battery meh kns... the food sux too but too bad u have to eat if not u will get hungry. While aslp the officers sometimes come and storm ur core -.-x 12.30 call us go down do pumping crazy a**hole then 1+ then can go slp and need to wake up at 5.30am insane -.-x...

Anyway 1 word to sum up all this is NS life is not fun at all =D got to life with it and follow the wave. Inside u are not treated like human like dogs lol even the cat can move around, we are worst then the cat hahaha ....

Time to have a afternoon nap and Hope my oc come back soon if not kana tekan like hell haiz .......

My last day..

2006-07-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

Today 1.45pm went to shu song house to pick him up and we went to sls to buy my mp3 player i bought the scandisk mp3 player it is quite nice and the sound quite good happy with wat i bought haha. After tat went to eat laska if nv eat must wait until 21/07 then can eat liao.... Then we went back home liao. When reach shu song blk, we bought drinks and sit down talk awhile then we each leave.At dinner time, my family and i went to long beach to eat my mum say this will be my last time eat good food haha then after eating i went to sebest house to take songs. It was very late liao anyway i want thx sebest for the songs here hope he will see haha XD

OK now i have some words to say to my friends.

Sebest, i hope u will stay happy always and dun always think abt girls and u have a very good little sister who care for u alot if u have time u can talk to her to share ur problems too or find me dun everything keep to urself no ppl will know wat u thinking if u dun speak up! Anyway i want to thx u for always helping me when i need help and when my bday celebration u came i am very happy =D cya on 22/7 on my book out ba haha

JunRong, I know u are busy in schoolworks now hope u will stay happy always too dun think too much(u know wat i refering ) haha let nature take the course (dun know right sentence anot dun flame me haha) Anyway to me u are a good friend of mine but sometime the words u say abit too harsh for me anyway i know u mean no harm. Hope u and her will be together and pass ur poly life fast and get diploma haha

Bernard, hope u can sign on in spf next time must zao me ar haha and still got few mths more to go for ur poly life to end but be prepare after u stop studying u will know the sian of doing nothing haha the feelings is not tat good. Anyway i want to tell u something too.... I know i have cause some troubles for u abt u and yk lenting money problem uptill now i wish to tell u tat am sorry tat i say things tat should not have to be said anyway hope to gain back the trust in u again. I know since i was at primary sch while we will playing around at blk 111 there hope our friendship will last long.

Shu song, few more mths ord liao come out must study well if not regret again and must save some money dun always spent so much. Must know how to think liao haha.

Yiliang,Wyman, Hope u all can endure the pain and stupids stuff u need to do inside. U guys are also always there for me when i need u all haha go out or wat. Anyway good luck in army!!!

ITE DOVER EC1D BROTHERS, Hope to have a gathering with u guys soon all botak except vincent haha anyway hope u guys get thru ns life or poly life. Sorry i didn't turn up at the recent gathering bec i have some reasons hope u all wun mind =D.

Sheena mei mei, hmm.... u are always caring for others i think is time for u to care for urself more haha save more money then no need work weekends jobs while studying XD anyway thx for ur bday gifts almost every year since i know u hahaha. TC =)

K tats about all if i miss out anyone impt let me know haha have to go get some slp. Hope to see u guys soon when i boot out haha. TAKE CARE EVERYONE !!!!

Sian

2006-07-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i and benard went to bugis to walk around and meet up with sheena and her friend li bing.They were at pasta mania so i went over there too to have my dinner. After tat we went back to the pub that i celebrate my bday there to finish up the remaining bottle of vodka. Li bing was drinkning madly i was shock to see tat lolx i got nothing to say.... Around 11+ we left the place we will all like buay tahan liao lol mabo mabo like tat after tat we go take mrt and went back liao.

Today is boring, whole day at home during dinner time my uncle come visit me haha come in 1st word is aiyo y cut botak ? Around 9 plus he left to fetch his wife. Thats all the things happening today. Tomorrow my mum not working got car to use lor wahahaha

SUPERMAN!!!!

2006-07-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today wen to cwp meet wyman and watch superman returns the movie was quite nice but i dun like the ending haha. While watching there is a couple sitting beside me she was making those 3 in 1 coffee or wat shaking the bottle of water, see liao very tulan then after she was eating non stop and damn loudly sian diao . After the movie, i went to metro bought 3 singlet for my ns....
then went back home liao. Have dinner with parents and now chatting with friends on msn.

4 more days

2006-07-07T00:29:00.000+08:00

Today 3 pm i go cut botak hahaha now botak liao then after tat went to JE to play pool with ban heng after tat go cwp eat dinner around9+. Then after eating we take 962 go home liao,reach home my sis rush out play with my hair then my dad come out play with me hair too -.-x botak nv see before meh play until so happy -.-x

K thats all for today still left 4 days of freedom haha

6 days more....

2006-07-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

Today afternoon went to vista eat with mum when reach the vista point carpark the cashcard machine was damn lousy -.- lucky i have a extra cashcard to put in. After eating we went to buy a clip for my fu haha. After tat we went to the shop and save there, my mum's friend working there see my mum 1st sentence is "Hey, play majong ar ? " i keep laughing haha my mum makong siao ppl also know hahaha. After tat we drove to cwp to shop for my ns stuff........ Bought a watch cost 15 dollar only and 7 dollar alarm clock my mum knew the boss of the shop so can get good discount. My mum bought herself a crystal guess watch very beatiful watch :D After tat go cold storage buy toothpaste then go home liao....

This 3 days

2006-07-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

Saturday, i went to bugis to celebrate my bday with friends 1st we reach there we were shopping around and see girls XD After meet up with Jr then we went to look for SS friends in acrade. Then around 6+ SS came we go resturant have dinner (thx jr,yl,benard for treating me) after tat SS and friends went to play lan game. Me yl and jr go shop around for cloths, it was very fun anyway lolx jr try on those newly imported japan cloths lol those jap gangster wear tat kind of cloths hahaha he wear liao them funny haha then the girls around their also saw also keep laughing haha. Then after tat around 8+ we went to meet SS and sheena at long john, she gave us each a present i was very happy to get a present ^^ After tat ask sheena to join us to go to pub and drink she say dun want as she is very tired after working and she is sick too hope she get well soon!

We went to a pub near bugis junction, I and SS open a bottle of chivas and vodka. Upon reaching inside the pub got a girl who is the waiteress or watever u call those working in pub lolx call us to call her xiao mei lol she actually older then us anyway. After a while SS left to fetch his friends and sebest to come over to the pub we make a super strong drink for him lol pour alot of chivas in hahaha he came back and drink then he kpkb y so strong 1 mine LOLX hahaha. We played finger guessing game inside the pub, i think we were most noisy group inside hahaha, the stupid banana damn pro lol cannot win him tulan dun play liao let shu song play with him bec i also cannot take it liao lol . In the end ss also lose hahaha he also cannot take it liao after tat we went to play pool in the pub i cannot even play properly lolx the balls i see like moving on itself haha after tat we watch the world cup shout until like mad so fun HAHAHA, then 1 of ss friend who supported england was damn sad and angry when england lose lolx he even want to throw chair lol but he was acting anyway after watching the pub gona close at 2am so we left i say byebye to xiaomei call her keep my half bottle of vodka for me i will be back lolx After that we was walking along the street to take cab. That england fan remove his cloths lol he was damn dramatic lol very funny also hahaha. After tat we each group of 4 and 3 left home tat was a fun day.

I hereby thanks all my friends(benard, yiliang, jr, sebest, sheena, ss and friends) for celebrating with me i have a unforgetable day of my life =D

Happi bday to me

2006-06-30T03:16:00.000+08:00

Hehe today is my bday happy bday to me happy bday to me haha!!! Later evening will be celebrating with my family after go have a great dinner . hmm dun know wat will my sis buy for me haha. Anyway i will be celebrating with my friends on sat pls come hor haha. Thx for coming say in advance. Time to slp nite nite XD

Lifeless XD

2006-06-28T16:03:00.000+08:00

Sat, i went to my cousin's son bday party he was 1 yr old super cute boy haha keep smiling. Its at costa sand chalet and i eat the buffet quite nice , stay there around 1h+ then we left. My dad said he still hungry so we wen to eat at changi village, we ate seafoods there it was damn nice man. If i have car i will drive my friends go there to eat hahaha.After tat we when back home......

sunday, did nothing the whole day was together with my parents....

Monday, i slp til 5pm then wake up so funny dun know y nowadays i slp so long hours maybe scare go in cannot slp wahhaha =D anyway after woke up i did wat i everyday do lol play game till late night finally am max level LOL.

tuesday , i still slp till 5pm wahaha omg daily routine someboday save me haha. Stay at home the whole day again playing ryl totaly lifeless haha. At night i got a call form yiliang who is in army now at tekong quite happy tat he call me, 1st thing he said is "Hello, bday BOY!!!" haha not yet bday friday haha. then i invite him to my party at saturday to have some fun. Hmm... sat i think i will tell them we should watch a movie , eat , go pub drink <--- this 1 my treat others pay urself hahaha

Sleepy

2006-06-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

Today i slp until 5pm then wake up and watch my favourite scv channel 56 number1 attacker show, damn nice and touching see the fighting spirit in sports. After tat i watched the condor hero show lol quite old but at home nothing to do see see lor . Around dinner time. my mum told me her friend's son was a RI stundent and fall in love with a china girl in new york and his mama dun like this relationship... i dun know y she told me this maybe she trying to shoot me again y ppl son can study so well i so stupid haiz kind of sad nv make my proud of me before hope when i get in to police will get some rewards to make her proud ba.

Stop compare me and other ppl !!!!!!

18 days more

2006-06-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

18 days left for me to enjoy myself in my home sweet home lolx. Today still a boring day nothing happen didn't left the house at home play my ryl and at nite played hero seige with benard and sebest lolx play until headach monster too big. My dads car's wheel got a white paint on it, he say i drive kana kerb then like tat kns blame me all fault is me la i not mr lai leh -.-x sian diao... Hope i can my own vehicle soon then no need to use his car haiz make me so tulan i feel like taking bike licence, but he say i go learn chop off my leg sian diao this cannot tat cannot.

I WANT TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY OWN LIFE!!!!! peace out~

Boring day

2006-06-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

From 6am i slp till 5pm today lolx then after tat wake up and bath and eat then back to slp hahaha PIG i slp until now then wake up and chit chat with friends on msn talking about girls and my bday celebration next week

hmmm nothing much today tats all cya~

Another day of waiting

2006-06-21T04:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm..... today slp whole day till 12 wake up by my "wonderful" sis , call me wake to eat breakfast haha as she today mc so no need to work she bought me big breakfast. Then i watch scv drama show till evening. Around 6 i met some of my friends (JR,thomas and his gf.Bernard) to play bowling at grassroot cc. Reach there the guard stop me kns lor i wear my newly bought addias tank top dun let me go in sia was so angry. then bernard bring us to the back door so we go in by there haha there was no guard there so i can sneak in .

We have 2 frames of bowling games after tat me. Jr,thomas and gf went to north point eat . I eat the fired rice there it was damn nice lor next time go i will order the same 1 again haha. After eating. i went up to buy a cake for my uncle bec 20 june is his bday!! HAPPY BDAY UNCLE!! Then i when to visit my auntie at her working place told her i will be going to her house later to celebrate with them .

We each when back home den. when i reach home i take the car keys drove to my uncle's house to celebrate with him he was very touched to see me bought a cake for him. He smile happily i was happy to see him smile haha. He always treated me like his own son and always encourage me whenever am down. when i was a small kid he always dote me until now i really wanted to thx him for looking after me for so many years .

After celebrating i went back home and slack as usual infront of my com............